Hello friends! Thank you again for coming on this journey with us. Have you read the previous part? Link at the bottom of the page. So here goes..
It took us a while to get to this place of being at peace through this journey. We dealt with all sorts of emotions (see previous posts) but with God’s help, support from each other and our families, we were able to have peace, trust God and surrender to his will. We still had moments of anxiety and worry but it did mean that when we experienced them, we chose to hand those feelings over to God and ask for his help whilst reminding ourselves of his truth and promises. We trusted that we serve a God of miracles who could do the impossible.
So, for the next few days, we did just what the clinic ordered, enjoying every moment without any feelings of pressure or anxiety, thank God. We returned to the clinic for my blood tests where we were informed that yes, I had ovulated. Wow! This could actually be it, our journey to becoming pregnant seemed much closer. We just kept thanking God and carried on as normal. I had pregnancy tests at home, and I had lost count of how many tests I had carried out during the course of our journey. Anyone who has been trying for a baby for a while will be too aware of the emotions that come with taking a pregnancy test and it coming up negative. Over time, I had almost become a bit numb to any emotions because I had been disappointed so many times. I still always tested because, hope never dies but I had found a way, not always successfully, to not cry every time a negative result comes up.
At this point, I had a couple of tests left over in the house. Since I knew I had ovulated, I decided to do a pregnancy test, on day 28, in the morning. At the early stages, it is advised that you take your test first thing in the morning with the first pee (urine) of the day as that will have the highest levels of the pregnancy hormone, HCG, which is what the test detects. Day 28 was a Saturday morning in April, and I had woken up at 6am. I sleepily took a pregnancy test and waited for a few minutes. I only noticed one line, as I had several times before with the previous tests. I was half asleep at this point, so I looked at it briefly, popped it in the bathroom bin and went back to sleep. I woke up again at 8am and felt the need to take the test out of the bin and look at it. I did and I could not believe my eyes. A very faint 2nd line had appeared next to the first. I honestly could not believe what I was seeing but as it was only the faintest line and it was 2hrs later, I didn’t take it as a positive. Well, I did what we do best in such situations, I consulted good old Google where I did find in several places that it could be that you are pregnant but it’s very early, hence the faint positive line. The advice suggested that the best thing was to wait for 3 or so days for the HCG levels to build up and then retest. Well, I told hubby and we waited. We had so much peace during these next few days whilst waiting, trusting God that if it was the time, it would come to pass.
I actually didn’t test again until the Wednesday morning (a whole 4 days later, lol). I woke up to get ready for work and the first thing I did was take a test. This time, there was no doubt about it; very quickly, two very clear lines appeared on the stick. I honestly couldn’t believe it. I remember taking the test stick to hubby who was still in bed, sitting beside him, showing it to him and saying, ‘babe, it’s happened, we are pregnant’. For me, it took more than a moment to sink in. Hubby was equally surprised. In that moment, we said a prayer thanking God for this miracle and proceeded to excitedly tell our parents. We always say we feel so blessed that God chose to bless us with our precious little girl. James 1:17 says that ‘every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.’ Indeed, we received a good and perfect gift from a loving and unchanging God to which we are forever grateful and thankful.
Hubby and I always say that we honestly could not have planned this any better. God blessed us with our miracle baby girl just at the perfect time in our lives and at a point where we had completely surrendered everything to God. I’m sharing our story to hopefully encourage women and men who may be trying to conceive and also to contribute towards eliminating the stigma that is still linked with infertility. It’s not an easy journey, it can feel very lonely at times, the journey can be a long one and you feel so many emotions. All of which are valid. However, do not lose hope, keep trusting, keep believing, keep praying. Your posture in the waiting period is something that you can actively work at. Do things you enjoy doing together as a couple, try to enjoy and prepare in the season you are in before you enter the next. And even if it doesn’t happen like how you plan, think or want it to turn out, God is in control and is faithful. You are not alone. Please feel free to get in touch and I will be more than happy to help and support in any way I can.
With all our love and prayers xx
Our precious miracle baby at 6 days old. I hope you don’t get too broody, lol x